You still can. Worst case, you spend $80 now and then on a textbook. There’s no reason you can’t buy a physics or calculus textbook and just start reading it. Costs about the same as an expensive dinner for two.

Best case, you just learn it for free or for the cost of a Khan Academy membership.

You’re not limited to surface level understanding. You can develop as deep an understanding of any topic as anyone else. In fact, I would wager an adult who knows how to work can probably learn math and physics at a much deeper level than a college engineering student, if only because they can take their time and absorb everything fully.

Sounds like you might be a coder. Consider the level of code quality people achieve in hobby projects: often much better than in a professional setting because in the pro setting there’s always a time and budget constraint. In a hobby project, one can polish and polish and take all the time they want.

It’s never too late to give yourself a solid science education.