I’m back home.

Had to do a few stressful things today I had been putting off for this and that reason, but it feels good to finally have absolutely demolished that fuckass albatross around my amazingly shapely neck.

Additionally, I weighted myself right after eating lunch. 76 kg. This bodes very well for me. I don’t know how much I’ll lose overnight, but I know I’ll lose quite a bit. This is great because last time I was at 75.75 kg, which means I’ll clearly be way below that. Perchance 74? Not sure. 73?! No way right?! Maybe, we’ll see, I suppose. Excited. Regardless, I’m feeling good. I’m not satisfied with my physique, but I’m proud of what I’ve achieved.

My parents bought me a rice cooker for Christmas. I don’t want a rice cooker. I love my parents though… I’m trying to see the positives, y’know. I’m finding it hard to see the positives.

This is why I hate holidays, especially gift-giving holidays. And birthdays. I don’t want people to give me stuff, because 9 times out of 10, I don’t want their fucking garbage. At the same time, I get what they mean, I get they’re just trying to be nice, so I can’t be mad at them or something, that’s unreasonable. I just don’t want garbage, why would you give me garbage? I don’t want a fucking rice cooker. I thought about it, then I didn’t buy it. Why do you think I didn’t buy it? You know I have the money. It’s because I don’t fucking want it. So why would you buy it? I don’t want it, regardless of who buys it!

I don’t even have anywhere convenient to store it. I’m already stressing out about this and it’s not even December yet.

In the call, my parents were kinda pressing me about whether I wanted something. I used the rice cooker as an example of something that I was pondering, but then decided not to get because I don’t need it. Then they hit me with the “well, I already bought it” FUCKING WHYYYYYYYYYY!!? WHYYYYYYYYYYY!!?

Christmas, birthdays. I hate them.

Especially my birthday, actually. I hate it so much. What do you think I want to do on my birthday? The answer is relax and enjoy the day. Eat nice food, maybe read, watch my favourite show or something, listen to music. That’s what I want to do on my birthday. Not have to answer a bunch of calls and reply to a bunch of texts from people I don’t care about. Not receiving a bunch of trash I’m gonna throw away. I mean, I don’t even really like receiving things I don’t want to throw away, though at least then it feels a bit more justifiable. Like, my grandma just gives me money, which really I can’t be mad at. She knows where it’s at. It’s still a bit meh, why gift things at all, but sure. Other people though don’t have the decency to spare me the trouble of throwing their garbage in the garbage.

I’m annoyed.