It’s very sad, but with the holiday weekend I’ve been able to keep it in the back of my mind instead of the front. Now that Mom is sharing info on services, i can’t imagine actually going there and seeing and what to say… and it’s getting to me, a lot. Today is a celebration day in my house and i don’t want to bring my family down, so i just need a place to rest this until i can get back to it tomorrow and begin processing. Sorry for public journaling.
I’m sorry man. I lost a younger brother recently too. It’s pretty rough. There’s no closure y’know, everything is just left open to eventually oxidize and degrade. Mine was the first sibling I’ve lost and it just feels like I’m exposed in a way. Like my armor came apart when my cohort did.