Getting hit with a lot of emotions. Some scary and some exciting.

My wife is being really supportive and we’ve been talking through all of this the past couple days nonstop.

Part of me is ready to shave everything and start HRT and feel pretty, but I’m also fucking terrified about how my world will react. It’s also only been a few days but I feel like a whole new world has been opened up to me?

I don’t know. I want to everyone and nobody so I thought I’d scream into the void here. Hope that is ok.

I’m so fucking empowered by all of you

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    9 months ago

    Congratulations!!! It’s a long and difficult journey of self discovery, but the pay off in the end is amazing.

    One word of advice that took me years to realize but really changed everything once I did … Do whatever it takes to feel good about YOU and do not let the outside forces influence or discourage you. YOU need to do what makes YOU happy and it’s no one else’s fucking business.

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      9 months ago

      💯 This!

      Another way I’ve heard it phrased was that at the end of the day, you’re the only one that has to live in your body. You’re the only one that has to live your life full time.

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      9 months ago

      Thank you! I’m fighting with the thoughts of not being pretty enough to do any meaningful changes? But I think a lot of that is coming from what I see in the mirror currently. He feels so lost and hollow and I don’t see “me” yet. I don’t even know what I look like

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        9 months ago

        This is exactly how many others have described it. Don’t judge yourself harshly before you’ve begun, sweetie. None of us started in an “ideal” place. Take care!

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          Thank you ❤️

          It’s such a bizarre feeling. Thinking you’re seeing yourself in the mirror your entire life and then realizing that the real you is buried.

          I see a glimmer of my true self in my eyes now. I already look lighter if that makes sense. More happy. Just by working on my self acceptance.