This is my life most of the time. I’ve been on long-term sick leave due to debilitating anxiety for over a decade, so I’m both very poor but also stuck at home the vast majority of the time. So just seeing people doing and/or having things, especially things they buy like they’re nothing and barely use, that I deeply want/need that would improve my life quality a lot. It’s not really envy, it’s just so hard to be unable to do anything about it.
I very rarely REALLY want something material, I’m generally fine with whatever I am able to get with the very little I can save.
But the Steam deck… I haven’t deeply longed for something on this level before. Being able to game while in bed or the sofa would help my back, and for when anxiety is so bad that just sitting up is too much. All I’ve had for the past 4 years is a shitty laptop from 2011, it can barely handle 1080p video and minecraft.
Hope you reach that goal soon. In the meantime, if you have a mobile device from at least the last decade, retro gaming using emulator apps like dolphin might be an option to hold you over. Most of my gaming has shifted to old PS2 titles and unofficial fan made APK ports onto Android, has my laptop gets too hot and loud to play off the desk.
This is my life most of the time. I’ve been on long-term sick leave due to debilitating anxiety for over a decade, so I’m both very poor but also stuck at home the vast majority of the time. So just seeing people doing and/or having things, especially things they buy like they’re nothing and barely use, that I deeply want/need that would improve my life quality a lot. It’s not really envy, it’s just so hard to be unable to do anything about it. I very rarely REALLY want something material, I’m generally fine with whatever I am able to get with the very little I can save.
But the Steam deck… I haven’t deeply longed for something on this level before. Being able to game while in bed or the sofa would help my back, and for when anxiety is so bad that just sitting up is too much. All I’ve had for the past 4 years is a shitty laptop from 2011, it can barely handle 1080p video and minecraft.
Hope you reach that goal soon. In the meantime, if you have a mobile device from at least the last decade, retro gaming using emulator apps like dolphin might be an option to hold you over. Most of my gaming has shifted to old PS2 titles and unofficial fan made APK ports onto Android, has my laptop gets too hot and loud to play off the desk.