I feel like I lose myself if I feel good and do things I regret. I don’t like the person I am when I’m feeling good so I choose not to feel good at all.
oh that’s interesting. I’m not sure I can totally relate. I grew up in an evangelical household, so there were a lot of things I felt guilty for that were totally healthy, but I never got to the extreme of any good emotion making me feel bad (though I definitely heard that from others). I’m not sure exactly what you’re referring to by “feel good and do things I regret”, but I do hope that you overcome whatever thought patterns are programming that response, say fuck this shit, and enjoy life to its fullest!
I wish you all the best in your journey! I wish I could have been more helpful here
That’s sweet of you, thank you. It’s kind of like I get drunk on the emotion and become more like the person I was before working on myself. More selfish, more insensitive, etc. I want to feel good about things but I don’t want to lose myself doing it. It feels degrading, both in the moment and also after. I become able to see myself do stupid things but can’t interfere no matter how I feel inside.
Those don’t sound correlative at all. Is it like you feel guilty if you feel good or something good happens?
I feel like I lose myself if I feel good and do things I regret. I don’t like the person I am when I’m feeling good so I choose not to feel good at all.
oh that’s interesting. I’m not sure I can totally relate. I grew up in an evangelical household, so there were a lot of things I felt guilty for that were totally healthy, but I never got to the extreme of any good emotion making me feel bad (though I definitely heard that from others). I’m not sure exactly what you’re referring to by “feel good and do things I regret”, but I do hope that you overcome whatever thought patterns are programming that response, say fuck this shit, and enjoy life to its fullest!
I wish you all the best in your journey! I wish I could have been more helpful here
That’s sweet of you, thank you. It’s kind of like I get drunk on the emotion and become more like the person I was before working on myself. More selfish, more insensitive, etc. I want to feel good about things but I don’t want to lose myself doing it. It feels degrading, both in the moment and also after. I become able to see myself do stupid things but can’t interfere no matter how I feel inside.