I’ve been drinking quite a bit since I was 21. I’m now in my mid 40’s and COVID really pushed me over the edge - lots of day drinking. I’ve tried to stop drinking a number of times now, but the most I usually ever made it was a couple days or at most a week. I got to the point where I think I was getting on the edge of DT’s when I tried to stop sometimes. I made it a few weeks (not consecutively) this summer. I slipped the week before last and was drinking quite a bit from about 10AM/2PM until I passed out later in the evenings. On Monday (July 24) I thought I’d try to stop again. I quit drinking sometime in the early afternoon. I wasn’t feeling too bad when I went to bed, but then I started to feel the dread/doom creeping over me. I spent the night not being able to sleep and feeling like I was going to die until about 2AM when I felt I had to break into my “emergency stash” I had gotten in case this were to happen. I drank 3/4 of bottle of wine by 4AM Tuesday morning and felt I’d see what would happen. I was able to fall asleep for a few hours. I woke up later that morning and worked, did my normal routine for Tuesday. That night I had the same experience, but it wasn’t quite as bad. I couldn’t sleep and still felt the impending doom, but I managed not to drink any. I held strong on Wednesday, and was actually able to get a good night’s sleep (thank goodness!). Now it’s Thursday. I was feeling pretty good which of course my brain was telling “just a few drinks tonight won’t hurt anything”. I was able to ward it off though and I’m looking forward to another good night of sleep tonight! Stay strong friends!
Thank you all for your kind words! Now I just need to make it through a Friday without drinking.
We all believe in you! Eat some candy or your favorite snack, or go out and buy your favorite soda, to give yourself something to consume when you feel the urge. My friend who quit 2 years ago drinks coffee incessantly.