• TheFriar
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    7 months ago

    I’ve heard from many long time users that those cravings never really go away. But I wouldn’t describe it as “cravings.” I would describe it as rose colored glasses. You’re reminded of the sensation/taste/whatever when you see someone else smoke or you smell cigarettes (cigarettes still smell good to me, years after I’ve quit. But they always smelled good to me, even when I was a kid. Burning cigarettes, not ashtray. That shits gross.), so you only remember he good parts of smoking. When you go back, you kinda have to push through a period of not even enjoying it. At least I did most recently. But the most recent time I quit, I quit at like 27 and started again at like 34. I smoked 1-2/day for a while, but it always just made me feel like shit. If I started smoking constantly again, that feeling would’ve gone away. But I never pushed past it.

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      7 months ago

      I’ve heard from many long time users that those cravings never really go away. But I wouldn’t describe it as “cravings.” I would describe it as rose colored glasses.

      I never really thought I had a serious habit, but I dabbled in uppers for a few years before getting diagnosed as ADHD (and then taking Adderall for the last decade), and your words perfectly describe how I think about cocaine. I really did enjoy coke, and I had a lot of good times with my buddies while doing lines all night, but I don’t really “crave” coke. I miss the ritual of it and the rush as it hits your bloodstream, and if the right person offered me some right now, I’d absolutely rip a rail, but I know the experience simply will not be as good as it was then.

      Once you know what you’re missing, you’ll always miss it, I think.

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        Oh-ho-ho yeah. I lived in South America for a few years. And I did absurd amounts of coke. Like…it was beyond a problem. But, the thing is, I don’t enjoy coke. I still don’t. I didn’t then. I’ve been offered coke since leaving and I have no real desire to do it. But there is still a lot of positive memories associated with it, sure. It was fun. Kinda. But I still don’t like coke. I don’t really like uppers, honestly. But I still miss the numbness and the feeling like you’re just…I dunno. Super fuckin high. And geeked and ready to do whatever.

        But again, I still hate coke and have no desire to do it again lol

        Molly on the other hand? Yeah, I’d still do that every few months if I had easy access to good shit.

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      It’s not the crawling up the wall tear your skin off craving of withdrawal. But the same feeling that makes you want an icecream at the beach, a hot coffee on a cold day, a chocolate when you’re bored.

      Except I reenforced it a shitload more than any of those things. Obviously I don’t want to smoke again or I would, but it’s still a craving.

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      I can say this sounds like me. I’m not in continual withdrawal for cigarettes. I remember smoking when having a drink and those were good times. I remember smoking on road trips and it was a good time. Smoking with coffee, same. Bad things happen? Walk away to gather myself by having a smoke. Not a good time, but definitely part of coping.

      I loved smoking. If it weren’t for the terrible health shit I’d recommend it to everyone.

      I quit and am not looking back. But I still feel the call.