Went to a beach with some friends and wasn’t able to wash my feet off before getting in the car. The car had rubber mats and I just had to hover my feet above it but even that was miserable. I don’t remember being so bothered by textures as a kid, it often feels like that symptom has gotten so much worse. The car ride was only 10 ish minutes but it felt like forever and I had to hold back tears for a good portion of it.

Now I am isolating myself from everyone and my girlfriend is bringing me food from the kitchen. Everyone other than my girlfriend thinks I have a headache. Idk what I’d do without her. The sourdough toast and stardew valley are making me feel better as well.

Idk how to end this I just needed to get it out yk?

  • EllenKelly [comrade/them]@hexbear.net
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    I also find it helpful (with friends and people i trust) to just say when I’m struggling with something that feels silly, its not always easy to do, but even a lighthearted ‘hey gang im about to say the most autistic thing ever, but i need a different spoon’

    😅

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      I normally would but I am with my girlfriends extended family who I just fucking know would infantilize me if they knew I was on the spectrum so I don’t feel comfortable bringing it up

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        Totally understandable, my condolences, I bet your parter appreciates you making the effort to be there

        I dealt with a lot of family events in my past with alcoholism, so you just having some downtime is pretty admirable imo

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          Lol, my girlfriends stepmom has been sneaking me weed here and there. Very cool of her, typically though some alone time, games, and snacks is enough