It seems the primary contradiction for antisemitism, at least in this moment, is isreal. We cannot target antisemitism until we solution isreal, which is nothing short of disarming and returing Palestinian land.

Why does it feel whenever this conversation starts, we devolve into land acknowledgement like statements that materially mean nothing like “It’s Zionism not Judaism”. As I do strongly agre with the statement, when laws are being passed saying “Actually zionism is Judaism and calling someone a zionist is antisemitic”, then must we continue to put this asterisk on our statements? The topic is now, the Jewish religion has been hijacked by genocidal freaks who want to hide behind their religion to commit evil acts. Freaks who successfully used their power to give themselves political cover, in the legal sense. Note, this is the same framing people had no issues spewing about Islam when suicide bombings and terrorist attacks were on the rise but they hold their tongue now.

I’m really tired of having to center Jewish voices and feelings( even anti zionist ones) when it’s Palestine that’s the victim right now. My heart does go out to anti zionist Jews though, it must be lonely to be in a religion that has powerful people progressing a genocide. But the victims right now are Palestinians and anything less takes away from the current issue; a state propped up by foreign funding is allowed to commit countless warcrimes while genociding the native population.

I hate english. I hate that I dream in english. I hate that I now mostly think in english. I hate how rigid it feels and like I can’t describe the most basic shit sometimes, because some concepts just don’t exist in english. I hate how anglos literally couldn’t be fucked to come up with names for some plants, animals or cloud formations or whatever, and just use latin instead to make themselves look more sophisticated. I hate that I had to switch languages mid-life and now I’m shit at both. I hate that I used to be such an avid reader, until I was dropped into a community of crackers where I was the only immigrant and convinced myself that I should only be reading in english from now on to help me learn the language better - it made me hate books and reading. I have no problems in everyday conversation, but can’t read a book without a dictionary, because some anglo has to show off their big fucking dick about how many fancy words they know and how that makes them better than you. I hate that I don’t get to talk to anyone in my native language anymore apart from a couple hours a few times a year. I hate the people who correct your grammar when you’re the person breaking your tongue to express yourself in a way they would understand, especially when they know exactly what you meant already and are “just trying to be helpful”. I hate the extra layer of politeness that gets smeared over every aspect of communication in the imperial core, like some kind of McCustomerService culture. I feel so trapped in this anglo nightmare mind prison.

Idk this is a big rant and some of these things probably aren’t that much of a big deal, but I’m feeling very fed up and salty that I struggle to express myself (I’m sure it’s related to autism as well).