I haven’t been on this site for a while, and remember there being a lot of internal debate about leaving the US. I can’t fucking take it anymore, I’m living every day full of disgust, anger, and hatred. I don’t have to explain why to this audience.
I am not a doctor or scientist, I was a freelance writer until this last year and have been underemployed for months due to the cutbacks in tech and AI. I am neurodivergent. I was booted from my last two jobs for talking to union organizers (they had spies) and not pushing a pro-Israel narrative when training LLMs. I’ve joined orgs and protests and I’m tired. I have no faith in the western left besides just being “informed” which is literally killing me and has alienated me from all of my friends and family. I’ve met a few comrades through organizing but we just bitch and get each other worked up over the fact that we live in the 4th Reich.
I have some savings, no kids, no house or car payments. My partner is SE Asian, immigrated 2 years ago with a green card but is also feeling the same way about living in the US with the added cruelty of how bad immigrants and dark skinned people are treated here. Just the overall dehumanization to endure to survive.
Can I please move someplace and grow fruit trees and wait for the right moment to join the PeeEL*Ay.
today I’ve been daydreaming about buying one of those decrepit rural farmsteads in rural Japan and fixing it up, while taking a vow of silence and only interacting with other people through hand signs and written notes for the rest of my life
Most people who say this can’t go a day without talking to at least 3 people lol. But yeah, I feel ya. It would be rough for the first few months since I am basically addicted to being online at this point.
yeah I don’t know if I could manage it. maybe if I just vowed to never speak English again