Checkmate big Pharma, I’m a poster-pilled serotonin factory now. I’ve seized the memes of endorphin production and liberated myself from Capitalism. Posting is praxis and I’ll cry if anyone tells me otherwise, so you better not! You’d hate it. I’m a real ugly cryer.

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    I don’t want to go back on antidepressants but on the other hand I don’t think it’s normal to cry literally all day over my circumstances in life then come home and keep on crying

    I could try to improve my circumstances but I am too busy being unable to stop crying

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      Sometimes, we need help. That’s okay and I don’t mean for this to be anything more than a shitpost. I do hear that when you find the right drug it can minimize side effects and really improve one’s life. Love and solidarity in your pursuit of mental health comrade.

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        Having another chain around my neck for my employer to yank should I misbehave is something I refuse to do again. I refuse to take on a financial burden that emotionally numbs me so I will be a more effective cog in the great machine. Make no mistake, I am suffering greatly but it has always been due to my circumstances. I don’t need chemical correction. I need community, companionship, affection, purpose, and meaning. I need love. I need a life worth living.

        I want to feel my feelings now. Even if it hurts. I just want it to hurt less a bit.

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          Highly relatable and respectable. Looking back on my previous years of depression it was absolutely a product of my material circumstances and alienation. Drugs weren’t the answer, radically restructuring my life was. I’m lucky I was able to do so, many can’t.

    • Two things that have helped me see mental health meds better:

      1. The right combination of medications does not make it easier to cope. It makes coping less necessary in the first place.
      2. You’re not just supposed to be along for the ride when it comes to your emotions. Everyone is swept away by their emotions sometimes, but most people can experience their emotions without numbing them while still having a baseline of control over them.

      Both of these things are helped by therapy and practicing new skills, but for me, neither of them would be possible without my meds