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They/Them, also “It” when a critter I like is being cute ior affectionate about it :3 Very cute, but also weird and sometimes kinda sharp
Hates this world, hates being stuck in it. Needs rescuing, needs understanding. Not happening. Only misery and extension of said misery happening.

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Cake day: November 26th, 2023

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  • I don’t really have a clear idea of “who I am” but I’m clearly some kinda weird goofy wiggly thingy at my core 😅 wiggles to illustrate

    Also my thing is like yours, I clear up (or think I do) pretty quick once I’ve started. It’s just terrifying to start anything that isn’t very familiar :-\ I don’t quite even know the rules for that familiarity threshold. Bleh! 'Course, judging by my amazingly high blood pressure when I started getting that treated… could be I just get past a threshold and go from “super anxy” to “so anxy I can’t even feel it any more” 🤷 Is weird. Am weird. extra shrug to illustrate very-shrugness




  • I’ve been playing a lot of Space Empires IV 😅 Am gonna keep trying stuff. May have another pass at my Itch library. I’m just kinda missing Elder Scrolls specifically, I guess, and though I could play Daggerfall and/or Morrowind, they just make me miss ESO 😅 Maybe I’ll try anyway. scritches at imaginary itch 😟

    I don’t even know if the ancient attic wiring up here could handle a gaming rig 😅

    Also, making calls and going places isn’t just “difficult” for me. I get actually physically ill. Even (somewhat) medicated I can be stuck in the restroom anxing for an hour before going on a two-minute ride down the road to pick up snacks from the local shop. I will put off a simple call, incurring debts or penalties or whatever, for months or years just because I can’t get myself to press the button to call. A lot of people say “Oh, it’s like that for everyone” but it is not. “Everyone hates phones,” people tell me, but few dread them.

    …Unless it’s like that for everyone and this world’s even more asinine that I’d realized. Surely there’s no way everyone’s just accepted being terrified constantly. Maybe they have and I’m the only rational person on Earth, baffled that the people around me think panic is normal and I’m weird for not accepting that 🤔 😮‍💨

    wobbles away mumbling


  • … Okay, sorry if this is off-tone but I really wanna see more adults shining their inner cuteness and carrying around plushies >:3 Among whatever other “inappropriate” things they wanna show. I saw someone outside who had a tail and damn near jumped out the window to go squee at them 😅 Super cool.

    Maybe I’ll start carrying a plushie around 🤔 At least in my purse or something. … Oh wait, I’m trans. I might get shot for that 🤔 Probably worth it. 🐭👍


  • What a weird comment. What do IT departments do if everything “just works?” Also, this isn’t a company. This is one random person saying Linux is bad for home users and always will be because they had one bad experience. Bug reports and actual requests for help are productive. “It didn’t work for me so it’s crap” is not. If some people having bad experiences doomed an OS then Windows would’ve died by now.

    I’m literally asking people to prefer using us for tech support over dropping our nth rant this week about how Linux is crap because it upset them.

    Also, we get every “it doesn’t work!!!” rant but few “Oh wow, it works just fine!” posts. Who wants to work on improving the “everyman” experience when they won’t be paid for it and the appreciation they get will be an email or two of thanks and people still insisting that Linux will always be crap because of every single thing they didn’t fix?

    [Kinda rant] Knowing that those people are giving special treatment to some other OS… or rather, I suppose they’re giving special treatment to Linux. It’s the “hard” one, the “rough” one. If your wifi doesn’t work in Linux it’s because Linux is crap. If it doesn’t work in Windows it’s because of literally anything but Windows. Could be solar flares or Canadian government mind control waves or something. Not precious Microsoft Windows, though. Everything works on that! (Except when it doesn’t, then I get called because I’m the local “computer whiz” or, for one summer, a computer repair tech critter… with that little experience in the role I still saw drivers flaking out and taking down Windows systems)

    Anyway, what do we get from “Linux will never be mainstream because my wifi doesn’t work” or any other “Shut up about your stupid crappy OS” type thing that we don’t get from a more cooperative approach? A bug report, or a request for help, or just “here are my experiences?” I suppose what I’m getting at is…

    tl;dr: Bashing is useless and annoying, nothing is permanently crap because one person had a bad experience. …Especially when another person had a bad experience with any available alternative. Sharing is sharing but “It sucks!” n times per week is discouraging and counterproductive.



  • Thankies! Calling and going are hugely difficult for me so finding and setting up with a new one is gonna be rough. … If I can even bring myself to do it :-\ Bleeegh!

    Can’t play ESO because I’ve only got my laptop and it just cannot run the game playably. Had to leave my (rather old but still vaguely capable) gaming box when I fled a few months ago. wobble Something that makes it even worse is knowing I could easily lose interest instantly upon loading the game back up 😅 Something I’ve put a lot of time into tends to fail to hold interest no matter how much I feel like I’ll love getting back into it, once I’ve left it. … I lose interest pretty quickly, unfortunately. Have to have new ways of doing things or I have no interest in doing them even if they’re new things. Finishing games is hard for me because there’s usually no growing or (mechanical) learning left to do at the end :-\



  • Bleeeh 🤷 Really wishing I could play certain games. Am missing ESO really hard latelish 😅 Money concerns getting real nasty. Bills piling up upon themselves. Local cash assistance stuff has been unhelpful and I don’t know what to do about that. Finally got a therapist… who seems to be just kinda going through paperwork with nothing to say of her own and no actually listening/talking to me. Just, y’know, filling out forms kinda stuff. For hours at a time @.@ Idunno if it’s really supposed to be like this for the first several appointments but I just feel like I’m not going to get any actual help from her. I think my way forward right now is to get onto SSI and see a psychiatrist and a therapist who’s actually good for me, but I’m kinda afraid to say any of that to her (and make myself look like I’m just looking for free money or something, and… Idunno just vibes-wise, I guess, I feel like she’s not exactly eager to help) and don’t know what else to do 🤷 :-\ So I’m just kinda stuck in this “Well, now what?” spot trying not to think about how unlikely it is that I’ll be able to escape more awful messness. Even having debt collectors to look forward to sounds like torture, given some of my problems.

    Bleh. Very bleh! Double bleh with an ugh on top. Also maybe a little grr. frusses noisily, then skitters into a nearby cloud 😶‍🌫️

    Edit: Oh, and I’ve got some kinda spot like I oopsed up a rib or something and it hurts a lot when I sneeze D: Also hurts when I move some ways. Unfun!


  • Maybe constructive communication courses should be mandatory worldwide if something that amounts to “Your stupid OS doesn’t work for me so it’s never going to work for anyone [who isn’t a nerd with infinite spare time to fix it all’ the time]!” is how people think to ask for help.

    My point being, this isn’t a request for help. This is yet another nuisance post by someone who’s come to punish “the Linux community” for some problem they had. It’s unproductive, unamusing, inflammatory, and on top of all’ that it’s redundant: we get this crap often.


  • Hard to say, I’ve only played it for, uhhh… 🤔 1728.5 hours 😅

    I kinda hated it at first because it’s not Elder Scrolls mechanically and I was excited for an actual co-op Elder Scrolls game but more recentlish I gave it a real try and discovered things I really liked playing with. Also there’s a shipload of content. Per faction. Plus Chapters. Plus DLC. … Eegh! I haven’t done any DLC, though, just got the Chapters available at the time. There’s a bunch of fun content, though some people insist it’s “wrong” somehow in a lore kinda way? Idunno, there are bit missing I’d like to see but I don’t remember encountering anything that much bothered me. Maybe that’s just ignorance on my part. There’s a lot there to dig into, though :3 Lore stuff, story stuff, just wandering around peeping at places, Trials (raid-ish thingles) and Dungeons and such, weird sortof open-world PvP stuff, other PvP stuff, various lil local event type stuffs, dress-up/fashion scrolls (naturally, it is an MMO ;P ), uhhh… yeah I miss it v.v Never did manage to get completely through all’ the content I’ve got access to. I still wanna get through Craglorn’s story, I think there’s some stuff after High Isle I never saw, uhhhmmmm… Yeah anyway 😅 Also it’s mechanically more interesting than it seems at first glance. Animation cancelling is expected, which… one may prefer or disprefer 🤷 Using “unusual” weapons and switching between two sets (which may or may not use the same kind of weapon) is also expected, at least at higher levels. Interesting funs to be had! :3! ^.^! I think there’s some RP, too, though Idunno what kind of quality/ies to expect out of that because I’m skittish :-\ Can confirm ERP is a thing, at least 😅 (tl;dr: it’s got a ton of stuff to fuff around with and I miss most of it :3 😅 )

    I’ve started a Morrowind playthrough but I’m not sure I can do it because it just makes me wanna play ESO 😅 May try Daggerfall and hope it doesn’t also exacerbate that issue >.<;

    I think I’d like to see more of the different furstocks of Khajiit :3 ESO shows a little more than just the sortof standard “bipedal cat” sorts, but stiiiiilll… :D Could bring in Lilmothiit too. Rar. stops yapping, skitters away


  • Ehee, I’ve been missing ESO so bad lately v.v Even tried to run it on this laptop. Haaahahahaha that was impressively ugly.

    Am thinking about going Saxhleel 🤔 I guess if I’m ever able to afford a decent computer again I’ll grab Necrom and make an Arcanist :3 ✨ … Don’t mind me, I’m just dreaming out loud 😅 Though, I’m thinking of taking a Khajiit name and honorific, say I was raised by Khajiit but their community hated me so I know a few things about them but little to nothing about my own ‘kind.’ I’ll stop yapping now 😅

    Bright moons, friend! ^.^