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Didn’t have to wait in the cold long for my tram today! Grateful also for the impossibly cheap yet delicious bahn mi at Hung’s Bakery on Vic St.
Didn’t have to wait in the cold long for my tram today! Grateful also for the impossibly cheap yet delicious bahn mi at Hung’s Bakery on Vic St.
That’s an insane commitment for a volunteer role. Any chance you could carpool with someone who lives close by??
Well it looks like I won’t be taking that half day off this week. Two regular staff out of five being on leave near EOFY is a bit much… luckily one gets back next week. Annoyingly, I have some stupid site visits scheduled for Monday that I can’t get out of. I really wanted to take that day off. I’ll see if I can put off the reports for them for later in the week and leave early Monday otherwise I’ll never get onto the shit I need to do asap. And try and get some extensions on stuff that the returning colleague can pick up on so I can clear all that this week.
I am Tired. Glad that past me bought some frozen veg for a quick cheap healthy dinner on days like today.
Good on the nurses for negotiating a decent pay rise so that they’re less horrifically underpaid. It’s such a dangerous and important line of work.
I have developed an awful mouth ulcer just in front of the top of my lower left teeth so it stings even when I open my mouth and my teeth brush past it. To say nothing of attempts to eat anything. This is not helping my mood. Might have to bust out the salt rinse and Kenalog. I need an “off” switch for tonight so I can just start again tomorrow morning…
Yeah, it’s hard enough for me even when I manage to get home just before it’s dark - no motivation to go for a walk or anything, not even creative activities like drawing or writing or whatever. Just want to curl up and numb my emotions to go with my cold hands and feet until bedtime. Power down…
The ceebs are raging today oh my god. I need to focus and just get this shit done but of course my stupid brain has to feel Emotions around sending people news they don’t want to hear.
I’m borrowing this phrase
Too much on at both jobs this week man, I wish I could cruise but no bueno. Tomorrow would’ve been ideal to wfh but I gotta go in for some training, so wasting 45 mins each way in traffic. I’m definitely leaving right on time tomorrow - left at 5:15 and the traffic was disgusting. Second job if I’m lucky I might be able to knock off early on Thursday in lieu of all the extra hours I’ve clocked up, but I’m going to need turbo caffienation.
we need to go deeper
These kinds of mess ups really feel so big at the time, but I reckon… You’ll be able to look back on it and laugh in the future. It might feel really far away, but I promise this absolutely won’t define you!
If you reckon you thoroughly messed up, maybe an upshot is people have a more realistic expectation of you and it won’t feel like you have as much of a burden on your shoulders. And then maybe you’ll get to prove your worth in unexpected ways down the track 😄
Thanks for all the lovely wishes you guys 🥲 I had a long day at work which isn’t how I usually like to spend it - but it was a really good day nevertheless; I got a free bun quietly added to my bag at the bakery on my walk to work, my colleagues utterly spoiled me with gifts, had a few wins, and I treated myself to Inside Out 2 which was awesome (if a little pat near the end). So many emotions thinking about how it’s been so hard to accept parts of myself. It’s just the film I needed to feel more accepting about where I’m at and less torn up about where my sense of self and core values went…
Is this 2008 again? Flashbacks to Sarah Palin…
Oooooh now that’s special! I have been spoiled with offers of food today.
small voice may I have some birthday cake please
I’m going to watch Inside Out 2 tomorrow, I’ve decided. To prepare I just rewatched Inside Out at home and honestly every time I fall in love with it all over again. It’s one of the best ever films I’ve watched, period.
This is no mere kid’s film, it’s a goddamn psychology class and therapy rolled into one. It brings me to tears, every time (and this must be the fifth time at least). And every time i notice new details, and events of the film have new meaning…
This is the first time I’ve watched it post lockdown and I was honestly ugly crying at the point when Joy realises Sadness needed to take over. I mean i cry at that point every time anyway (also when Sadness sits next to Bing Bong and just listens). But this time it hit so much harder after the huge events of past years: the loss of friends, the irreversible life changes, isolation, the realisation that some joyful parts of the past are truly over and can’t drive us any more, and have to be let go to move on to new joy, the sadness taking over happy memories, the rebuilding of new networks by letting emotions blend, and of course one of the big morals of the story - don’t keep trying to push through and be happy all the time, embrace the difficult feelings or everything starts breaking down. Deny sadness and you get locked out of your brain with depression.
This film has meant so much to me over the years because I’ve always been Sadness - Negative Nelly, Debbie Downer, the character in the film to a tee - and both hated and defended that fact fiercely growing up. This was honestly the first film that gave me the permission to embrace it and be proud of it - especially the mum having Sadness running the show with empathy, it was the first time I truly understood who I could become rather than forcing myself to be someone else.
I can’t get over how the creators weaved these personal experiences we’ve all had and actual psychological concepts into such vivid, coherent, playful imagery that doesn’t just track as a very entertaining kid’s adventure film but also as an incredibly creative and powerful metaphoric film for all ages. I could watch it every year til I die, honestly.
Of course I don’t have such high hopes for the sequel. But I can’t not watch it when the original means so much to me. ❤️🩹
Ugh. Want. Miss open fires a lot. Therapeutic, mesmerising, beats being on a screen for sure.
Caught Perfect Days with a friend, I went in wanting to diss it tbh but came out generally enjoying it, it didn’t romanticise menial worker life in Japan as much as I expected it to and I enjoy that it didn’t infantilise the viewers. Good one to watch on the big screen and soak up the Vibes.
Procrastinating big time on some study items that I have to put my big girl pants on and do because nobody else will and it’s self structured so up to me to figure out… So of course I end up mopping the floors which I’ve been putting off for months. It’s good though, because the house has now got a real clean energy.
Dinner, and then I’m going to just sit in front of my laptop and force myself to read some journal articles to get the ball rolling at least.
Woah, nice haul. Sauce or powder?
My scotch bonnet looks like it might be permanently done after gifting me a bounty in April (it did survive falling down and having half of it torn off), might be the last year for the insanely hot Thai chilli too. But I have a tomato plant that refuses to die and still is attempting to put out flowers like what the hell bro. You can rest now
The description alone sounds vomit-inducing. Key lime pie and cheap chocolate? No thanks. I appreciate you taking one for the team though.