When home is more depressing

Too adhd/social anxiety ridden to go out and meet people, apps are terrible, but it’s for the best, because one of the very few times I actually had contact with someone they gave me herpes, and I’m way too depressed to be around. So, uh, yeah, I need help but it’s not like anyone really can help. It’d be lovely to be intimate with someone again but I’d feel bad for anyone I let close enough for that. Sorry, overly depressing, you just kinda caught me during a crash and I’m desperate to let it out somewhere.

Yeah I really wish. It’s just not going to happen though. I don’t go anywhere or do anything. I just sit around and shovel stimulation into the black hole inside myself at an unsustainable rate to try to distract myself from the fact that that’s all things will ever be for me, that’s all things ever can be for me. I’m so tired and I desperately just want to give up. Even when things are ok and my mood isn’t in the dumpster it hangs over me. I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m sick of being a barely functioning human being. I’m just so tired and I want to turn it all off. There’s things that I would like to do or have or be, but they just aren’t going to happen. I’ll never have someone that cares for me. I’ll never be able to actually stick with a hobby I enjoy. I’d love to actually be a person I enjoy being, but THAT’S certainly never going to happen.

I can’t kill myself, because too many people still care about me. I wish people would forget about me so I could just leave. There’ll probably come a point when I’m too tired to care. Hard to tell when it’ll be.

😭

Good spot

I read it like a verbal reader takes a breath there. It changes the timing and the feeling of it.

I sincerely hope you never need to. Best of luck

What a deathmarch

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Mdi_Fh9_Ag

Fuuuuuuuuuuuck

Yep, and I hope no one ever finds the need to. However, when things get bad enough something to practice can substitute for something to do.

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I’d rather just not tbh but I don’t want to leave a me shaped hole in people’s lives

I was made for sucking dick and I’m sad I don’t do it more often. Haven’t had one since the start of june

Mrow meow

When I’m sick I don’t really have the initiative to be horny, I think. If someone else initiated it though…

“Honey, grab the lube, I need you to take my temperature!”

Rectal carrots are great even without the privacy benefits

Honestly can’t really tell from the picture that your shirts pink. Is it really pastel and just doesn’t show up well in the picture or am I slightly colorblind

Do you think Geordi’s vision might have an advantage or disadvantage?

There’s something to be said for being a desperate, horny, needy, leaky mess though. Might not be for you but you never know unless you try =D