sappho [she/her]

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Cake day: July 26th, 2020

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  • A lot of women with early life/chronic trauma get told they have borderline even if they don’t fully fit the criteria. It’s a systemic misogyny thing. I wonder if that is what is going on here?

    It is common for people with ADHD and/or autism to develop CPTSD as a result of the way we are treated by others and by the world’s inaccessibility. CPTSD absolutely looks like chronic depression with some of the traits of borderline personality disorder. It might be worth considering because there are different treatment options for CPTSD that could be more effective.




  • There’s a weird thing that some people with LC have where large blood draws lead to symptom relief for hours/days/weeks. Probably something something microclots or inflammatory something being removed temporarily, or maybe the body’s response to injury…? No one knows, we’re all just speculating. But it happened to me personally after a big blood test and then I was seriously looking into donating blood regularly, or, alternatively, nurturing a crop of medicinal leeches at home.



  • Ugh, this gets right to a massive pet peeve of mine regarding mainstream climate change coverage. This relentless fucking fixation on having hope, the absolute strident necessity that we all feel the “correct way” about what approaches us. It’s toxic positivity. It’s emotional policing.

    All of these people are terrified of death and they have no idea what hope even is! Yelling at some teenager grieving the destruction of the biosphere, “Be more optimistic! Look at the cool tech!” - it’s not just ineffective, it’s the literal opposite of helpful.

    Hope isn’t optimism! Hope isn’t believing that we will win. Hope is when you’ve gone fully into despair and then find yourself, somehow, still alive there. This facade of positivity they call hope will break at the first sign of stress; that’s why they push it so hard, insisting we all perform optimism as well, propping up their fragile feelings for them. I just want to shout it in their faces: You can’t have hope without death! You can’t have peace without grieving! Fuck you, start weeping!


  • And the way to prevent it is vaccination, and multiple vaccination is better than single to prevent long COVID.

    Fun fact, if you say the word “mask” in 2024 you will spontaneously combust. Also definitely don’t cite the actual statistics on how much vaccination reduces the risk of long covid. It totally doesn’t matter. Everything is fine.

    Are we going to start seeing people get COVID not from infection, but from themselves in reactivation?

    I have been wondering about this for ages. In the past year I have seen a couple people who are uber-isolated (bedbound, no medical care) with long covid testing positive repeatedly with no known exposures. Either they’re astronomically unlucky, or…


  • I think most people are extremely numb. Maybe emotionally just to get through the day, maybe as a result of the constant barrage of stimulation we get online. So media portrays things that are horrific and shocking because it’s the only thing that makes anyone feel anything.

    I can’t tolerate it personally. I have to skip out on a lot of media that is popular these days because it’s just too brutal for me. But I am probably an outlier for neurodivergent reasons (mirror-pain synesthesia, high affective empathy).


  • Well, first of all, every morning my cat comes and sits on my chest and she’s very very soft. And there have been a few times in my life where I’ve gotten to feel this transcendent, infinite love that is greater than anything else I’ve ever felt. So I feel inside for the love in my own heart, or I look at my cat, or I look at kind people still trying - and then I can imagine that thing I felt before, the big love under everything, is real and true and still there. I don’t really understand yet how it is possible, given the suffering, but I imagine it anyway.




  • I get short of breath and feel like I’m going to faint after walking around too. For me it’s because I developed a circulatory disorder after getting COVID. The blood slowly pools in my lower body instead of being properly circulated back to my heart and upper body, thus causing shortness of breath (not enough oxygen) and lightheadedness (not enough blood to brain). The disorder is called POTS, it’s quite common to develop or worsen post-COVID, and on average it takes years to get a diagnosis because most doctors are not familiar, so I am compelled to mention it to you just in case it is helpful. You can screen yourself quite easily at home with something called the NASA lean test.



  • Why do you dislike talking on the phone? For me it’s because I use more cognitive energy trying to understand speech due to auditory processing issues. It also really stresses me out to be expected to spontaneously socialize at the moment my phone erupts with an alarm. I like video calls better because reading lips helps me understand speech, and I prefer pre-scheduled calls near the end of the day so there’s a generally consistent expectation of how long the call will last. I also make sure I have stuff nearby to fidget with because it helps me ground/regulate while socializing.






  • Since you’re still masking, have you considered intentionally connecting with others who are? There’s a disproportionate number of neurodivergent people in covid-conscious spaces because, broadly, we’re less likely to make decisions based on social pressure and what everyone else is doing. You might be able to find people to meet up with in person as well as local covid-conscious events on covidmeetups.com and also through Facebook groups with the prefix “Still Coviding”