• melpomenesclevage
    link
    fedilink
    English
    arrow-up
    6
    ·
    edit-2
    2 months ago

    So you don’t deny any of it? Just deflect abd reassure yourself that ‘I have my shit together, so it can’t happen to me’

      • melpomenesclevage
        link
        fedilink
        English
        arrow-up
        1
        ·
        edit-2
        2 months ago

        Why do they always say exactly that? As if I’m the one with the fucked coping mechanisms here, instead of responding to anything ive said, like its some sort of gotcha?

          • melpomenesclevage
            link
            fedilink
            English
            arrow-up
            1
            ·
            edit-2
            2 months ago

            You’re not even responding to shit I said; youre just like three comments into trying to find an excuse why I’m someone you shouldn’t listen to, because compassion is too scary for you, but you would feel like such a huge ass arguing against the things I’ve said, and you know it.

              • melpomenesclevage
                link
                fedilink
                English
                arrow-up
                1
                ·
                2 months ago

                Why do I think I might be mad?

                A quixotic commitment to logic and reason, proven impossible to complete a century ago, even after Edward Bernays and ivy lee thrust a dagger unto the heart of truth? All realities that interacting with you really drives home. Its mildly frustrating, but it does also make me question, in little ways, if all of this is mad, and even if we can do better, we shouldn’t, and I should just be trying to maximize harm at all times.

                I also think you’re a total asshole completely scared to have basic compassion or humanity, but, like, That’s more disappointing than frustrating, and not wholly unexpected.

                  • melpomenesclevage
                    link
                    fedilink
                    English
                    arrow-up
                    1
                    ·
                    2 months ago

                    Shit. I guess bevause my mom never loved me. Same reason ive got a thing for older women, I bet. Theres this whole social thing where everyone says ‘your mother loves you’ and it was just… Harrowing as a kid? At least kids with dead moms got to just say that and people believed them? There was room for something else there, but I didn’t have the luxury of being allowed to heal, every moment around that awful fucking woman was a twist of the knife, a reminder that I wasnt worthy of love, wasnt supposed to be loved. And that kind of fucked me up as I developed. There are empty places, and theres nothing I can do about them; there’s nothing I can do to heal those wounds, because they can’t be healed. They’re just kind of always a part of me now, you know? And I’m angry about it

                    But I don’t see what that has to do with this.

                    How about you? Why’re you mad?