That’s exactly how I feel. I always felt different than the others, but couldn’t tell what was « wrong » with me. It was by pure chance that I started to look seriously at autism a few months ago, and it offers a solid explanation to … my whole life indeed.

I don’t know « by how much » I am autistic (or even if I am really autistic to begin with), but reading about the insecurities, explanations, and solutions from autistic people helped me a lot to manage situations that were very difficult to handle in the past (and more generally, not being afraid to do things differently, which was difficult when I was not admitting that I am different, and that is not a problem at all).