Heyyy I was just about to post something like this. Absolutely OP. I’m currently going home for the holidays on the same day I was supposed to be going to see my now ex-partner. It’s been a month since we split up, and it still feels rough. It’s soul crushing, especially when you have to keep on a brave face for others.

I’ve talked to a close friend and some family who helped me realize that there were a lot of red flags and toxic behaviors I just didn’t see. I’m better off now and I know it deep down. But shit… You don’t just spend years with a person without getting close with them, and missing them. Even if they’re not good for you. Even if you genuinely did love that person. You just keep moving, by any means necessary.

But hey, I guess that’s what you have to do. Just keep at it, and even something like getting from one day to another is enough. And find/do things that you like to do. Anyway, not sure where I’m going with all this. But I sincerely wish you well comrade, from one sad hexbear to another. Best of luck.