Especially if your existence is a constant failure… When you own nothing, you have no future, job and no woman wants you (and you still a virgin as an old adult)… Recently I’ve feeling suicidal again, I don’t think I have the courage to do it, which makes this worse,I can’t even stop this from messing with me.
Sorry if you are bothered by this but I’m feeling really rotten. Just… Don’t tell me to get help, that’s not a possibility. I’m getting tired of just waking up alive.
I’ve done most of what you asked and failed at it. I got rid of my guitar and I don’t plan to touch it ever again, it depresses me trying to play. And bores me most of the time. I had a shit warehouse job were I was abused. I can’t get any calls for a job anymore and I don’t live where you live so no, the government of this city won’t help me to get a job.
And I’m a bad person, I don’t wanna help anyone, I’m tired of being used or feeling that I’m doing something for someone without getting paid.
Do you have the capacity to recognize how selfish it is to continually elicit sympathetic well thought out answers from people only to shoot them down? I doubt you are a bad person; but you are acting in bad faith. The least you could do is just thank people for their responses. Show appreciation for their effort and skip all your reasons why their suggestions don’t work.
I’m just speaking my reality. I’m not attacking anyone, I don’t see your point at all