ADHD person here. And I’m just so drained from spending hours meticulously looking for (essentially) $20.
It’s not about money — I’ll live without the $20. I’ve just lost so many important things in my life so many times that it drives me absolutely fucking insane. Seething, heart thumping, muscle flexing rage.
And what makes things worse is that I take measures to prevent this from happening. So when I still lose things, the failure just cuts twice as deep.
Not looking for any solutions atm. Just venting to folks who might get it while I physically recover and let the loss go. Thanks all.
Feels like this happens to me once a day with something. If I’m particularly manic I will obsess, I will cancel plans, I’ll ruin my entire day looking said thing.
Oof. The palpably awkward moments I’ve created cause so much cringe in hindsight. Adrenaline (?) is a helluva drug.