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Cake day: June 20th, 2023

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  • Ginawa mo lang ang alam mong tama base sa kaunting alam mo. Sapat man yun o hindi

    Tagos na tagos sakin tong sinabi mo na 'to. Recently kasi I’ve been questioning myself baka nga talagang di ko nahandle nang maayos yung relationship. Baka ako talaga yung dahilan why it became chaotic. Pero kung aalisin ko kasi yung acquired knowledge ko ngayon after everything that happened, I think I really just did what I thought was right during those times. I’m slowly coming into terms with it. Kaso the threat of her, committing suicide is becoming a huge roadblock para makapagstart na sana ko magfocus on my own healing. Why is the world so cruel? Antagal ko bago makakuha ng courage to not chase after her tapos biglang may suicide threats naman sa huli. Ang gulo rin kasi she keeps saying na she’s not trying to get me back. Pero at the same time she’s saying na ginagawa nya yun kasi she feels she has no one else already. And that wala naman daw kasing sasagip sa kanya. And that desidido na daw sya. Hirap neto sobra.


  • New development lang. She’s saying she’s going to commit suicide before blocking me entirely from all her socials. Goes without saying I’m really panicking. What I did is I contacted her close friend. Sabi naman nila pupuntahan daw nila ngayon pero wala pa ko update. I really feel bad. She was indeed the one who broke up with me but the way she spins the story e ako daw yung nang abandon. And the scary part is I think she also believes that imagined scenario. Sobrang fucked up na din talaga. I’m at a loss kasi what if she went through with it? I won’t be able to bear the guilt and baka sumunod nalang din ako bigla.


  • I finally was set free from an emotionally abusive relationship. She broke up with me and I finally had the courage to not chase after her.

    But she’s visibly upset. And I’m afraid of what she’ll do to herself. But at the same time, I wanna start looking after myself and start my healing. But I feel guilty for letting her be. While here I am reconnecting with my friends.

    What do I do?











  • Okay since new universe, new personality na rin dapat ako. Kaso I still can’t change myself. Back in Reddit I post a lot about my relationship troubles and I thought kaya ko na tiisin. But please allow me to vent out. I have no support groups. I think my friends hate me din. Literally nowhere to dump my emotional baggage to.

    I just hope things will turn out okay. However that may be. I feel really alone. Been mood tracking lately and by the love of god, mas lalo lang naexpose na I always feel down for the last 2 weeks. I’m afraid that I might lose my job if this continues on kasi ang crippling din talaga.

    I hope everyone is doing great. I envy you, guys. I wish I can feel genuine happiness again.


  • That’s actually the main appeal of Lemmy for me. Kasi alam kong yung mga tech-savvy yung karamihan na magma-migrate. It feels refreshing kasi Reddit and social media are full of “outgoing/extroverted” people. Alam mo yung feeling na noong bata ka pa e internet ang refuge mo kasi yung mga normal na tao ay busy having a life. Pero ngayon baliktad na. Haha!

    But seriously, yeah, parang ang labo na i-introduce ang mga non-techies sa Lemmy. I’d no sooner just ask for their permission and make an account for them than to walk them through the steps.

    Lmao it’s like trying to introduce your friends/family to Linux.

    How’s Xmonad treating you, btw?

    I’ve used tiling WMs for 7 years now. First used i3wm so I have experience before switching to Xmonad last year. Tbh, I can’t recommend Xmonad for your first tiling window manager solely because it’s config is a pain to learn. Unless you’re already familiar with Haskell, which the config file is written on. I just switched to Xmonad because I liked the idea of dynamic tiling rather than full-on manual tiling.

    Tiling WMs talaga way to go sakin kasi I really prefer working with keyboard shortcuts. Plus after using tiling wms, there’s really no way I’m going back to the disorganized that is a stacking window manager. I use a Windows virtual machine for gaming (hence why I have 2 GPUs), and I can’t be bothered to use Windows Explorer. Hahaha! But then I also use Vim as my text editor so I guess I’m “that weird guy”.


  • You might be right about most people here could be more technologically-inclined. To begin with, Lemmy’s UI is still confusing. Also I can imagine a lot of people asking “wtf is an instance”, etc. Although this might change especially it gains more traction.

    I currently browse using desktop on Firefox (don’t let Chrome win the internet). Hope we will have a good mobile client soon. That being said, aRcH bTw.

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  • I guess communities come and go talaga. And I think this is for the better. Reddit is starting to become “too mainstream” anyway. I sound like an edgelord but it is still my genuine opinion that if a community gets too saturated, the quality also gets worse.

    I came from the era of forums pa. Grew up with convergenceforums, moved to symbianize, god-forbidden 4chan, and various other boards for each small community I belong to. Until social media basically killed message boards.

    This is just another transition, I hope. While I don’t benefit from 3rd party reddit apps anyway, I still don’t feel good about supporting the platform of a tyrant CEO who doesn’t even value its users, the ones who keep the community running. Fuck spez.