I had a really rough day and crashed out, was too late in getting the tub over the seedlings so another got quite chewed.
I don’t know why I keep trying to do stuff that requires consistency and follow through. But what else to do? Nothing?
Radical acts of defiance and persistence
At this point it’s out of pure bullheadedness. I am not getting anywhere
You’re refusing to shrivel and die, that’s not nothing. That’s a hell of a something. Proud of you
Thanks friend
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That was an incredible time ❤️
Thanks so much to everyone here for all your support over the last year or so. It’s been a hell of a ride, and I’m super grateful❤️
And thank you to the crew that came out tonight. It was an absolute pleasure hanging out with you guys and having you there made a really big difference ❤️
You’re GOOOOOOOOOD
You did so well!! I’m so excited to see you perform again! You were beautiful!! 💜💜
So good! Hope I can catch a future gig
That was a very fun time. I really enjoyed it.
It was so good to see you! Love to meet again!!! 💜
I really enjoyed meeting everyone last night. We gotta do more live music tho. Have you been to the Thornbury Local on their open mic night yet?
I haven’t but defo would like to! I need to see more live music!
Well done tonight!
Happy to have been able to give you some support.
So glad you came too! It was great to meet you!! 💜 It would be great to catch up again!
Same here!
Good morning everyone!
Hope everyone has a great day ❤️
I’ll fill you in on how it goes tonight!!!
Edit: lyrebird lounge at 8:30pm, I’ll be getting there around 7:45pm to watch a couple of the people before me.
I’m the dark skin guy in the white tshirt and glasses.
Also I make minor guarantees about the quality of my performance lol
Oh yeah, my nickname is Reef.
We need the place and time again I forgot :(
I have lemons to throw.
Lyrebird Lounge, 8.30 pm. Just near Ripponlea Station. Will be there too - look for the red fedora.
Great ty :)
I’ll be there as well, I think I’ll wear my bright orange and pink pants :D
Heh heh, we will blend in with the crowd with no difficulty whatsoever.
I will dress plainly but wear the One Ring
In your nose as per username I hope?
on my pointer finger as per my background
I could see myself all in brown and grey as per normal.
That’ll really stand out from the crowd.
Break a leg
I’ll be the witness to make sure you are telling the truth and the whole truth.
I might be there too.
One of us one of us
Not my part of the city so can’t get there but good luck
Have a great gig!
Awesome man! I can’t be there but I’ll be thinking of you. Rock the house!
So I need to just put this somewhere. With my skin condition dramatically worsening by the day I returned to the GP, who looked as shocked as I felt. The odd little bumps/sores have become open weeping ulcers and spread over my biceps and thighs. He has taken swabs and is testing for Buruli/Bairnsdale ulcer and faxed an urgent referral to a local specialist. I feel emotionally yukky but physically there’s no pain at all, just when I sweat it stings. I’m trying to stay positive but I’m pretty depressed.
Oh my gosh how horrible. But hopefully whatever it is is fully treatable and most likely will be.
Oh gosh. I hope it gets sorted out asap. ♥
I’m so sorry you’re having such a hard time. I hope everything gets better soon ❤️
hugs
Oh fuck, that sounds really worrying. I’m glad there’s no pain but it sounds like an urgent case for sure. Fingers majorly crossed that they get back to you with a treatment asap…
Hopefully things will get better for you soon, especially with the urgent referral.
Please try and take care and glad you were able to see the GP again.
Spud and I have arrived. We are at the back.
I will have to attend in spirit form only. If you hear a soft rustling of wings or a quiet “caw” , that will be me. 🙂
So that was you getting into the rubbish bins behind the station?
Damn, no one was supposed to notiice that. There were some quality scraps in those bins though, what else was I supposed to do?
I’m about 15mins away. Traffic sucks
Time for a nap and last low energy practice.
Here we go!!!
Thanks everyone for all your support and well wishes ❤️❤️❤️
Edit: holy fuck the rain is here!
Running 15 mins late. Be there at 8pm
Good luck!!
Certainly a day of it. Almost there though.
bit more mushy compost on top then off to the physio.
Really over the anxiety/depression :/ just deep unease all of today and now feeling really glum and dull about everything. I even walked to work in the sun this am, and work was productive, but I still felt detached and fuzzy. Cough still rattling around too. I don’t think taking a sick day is going to help as I’ll just be unsettled all day.
No suitable rentals have popped up so far on my radar. Registered interest in a couple but no updates yet.
Ugh. I managed to buy some veg on the way home, I’ll force myself to make a pasta dish and eat it and crawl into bed to dissociate on the phone for the rest of the evening. Tomorrow is a new day…
E: soxcat is still here as her human won’t be back til Monday. It’s saying something that I can’t even feel that happy around her, but she’s been snuggling up against me lots. And left a whisker on tgr couch for me - that’s good luck isn’t it?
lomg kitty whisker
That is one IMPRESSIVE whisker. According to Doreen Tovey (yes I’ve been re-reading Cats in May and Cats in the Belfry), chewing off a whisker or two is a love offering. You were there for her when she was suffering, so now she’s there for you. Who says cats can’t do empathy?
Anxiety is horrible, soul destroying and crippling. But it does usually comes in waves, admittedly a wave can last a long time. Just hold on for a break in the surf where you will have a respite from the anxiety.
Thanks man. Yeah, I know in my mind that it’ll pass, even if it’s a month away, but man this is such shitty timing. Sucks being physically unwell too. I’m going to reframe my early bedtime as looking after myself and creating a sense of safety so I don’t feel like I’m spiraling. I got this. One day at a time.
I hope you’re ok mama @Seagoon_@aussie.zone ♥
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I’ve been wondering how Seagoon is going, too. Hope she’s ok 💛
Odd question, but do ya’ll ever plan out other lives for yourself? Occasionally I’ll just sit on realestate and and look shit up. Might be like “alright, if I split with the mrs can I afford to buy a unit? where am I gonna live?” or “Fuckit, lets all move up to bright! I hate it here, alright what can we afford?”
I find it really therapeutic for some reason. These alternate lives I’ll never live out.
I sometimes wonder what it’s be like to be a dog or cat when I see them.
I’ve definitely planned out what to do with large lotto wins I will never have. Looked at moving overseas or interstate. I’ve considered moving into a unit right in the centre of Melbourne so I can enjoy all the activities there, or moving to a big block of land in the middle of nowhere and fixing up a rundown place.
I think it is a healthy thing to do, as long as you are not doing it with rose-coloured glasses and making yourself unhappy with your current circumstances. If you are doing it realistically it often ends up highlighting things that are important to you - things you would miss if you made different choices, and sometimes things you really want that you are actually able to do now.
I do the lottery thing regularly. I don’t resent my current life, but love to imagine what it would be like to not worry about bills and just live life.
Personally I’d have a place in like Daylesford or similar. Trees, pond, dogs, fireplace etc.
Doing nothing would be blissful.
I sometimes find my daydreaming self inserting myself into works of fiction - such a Sherlock Holmes, the Vorkosiverse etc. Probably a symptom of deep psychosis.
I am OFTEN on the bridge of a warship protecting the earth. Usually heroically telling the crew to abandon ship as I fight impossible odds bravely sacrificing myself.
Good to know its not just me.
That’s so cool - what’s your battle soundtrack?!
Usually just a bunch of alarms, explosions ect. Despite the lack of sound in space it sure is a loud experience. I’m CONVINCED its linked to my anxiety cause I dissociate hard.
I always thought dreams were my alternate lives in the multiverse. That’s how I look at it anyway
Frickin hope not. Cause my alternate selves die a ton and also have a bunch of orgasmless sex.
Apparently my alternate selves have a pretty sweet deal. But one of them hangs out with Donald Trump, so fuck that guy lol
Looking at houses in locations I’d love to live in but can’t afford is a real one. Also, I was deeply fantasising about moving to NYC when I travelled there a couple of years back, asking people I met there about their experience in moving, even though I knew deep down that I’d never do it. It’s nice to dream!
I’d be surprised if anyone doesn’t occasionally entertain alternative lives. Very Sliding Doors.
Pretty sure we’ve all wondered where we might be if we’d picked different doors.
I creep myself out when I go too far down that path. All of the things that have happened to me worked together to make me who I am, and at a certain point in my musings I realise that by changeing the things that happened to me I am effectively erasing myself from existance entirely.
I sometimes do too.
Today’s gonna be painful
And the just joey is full tilt
gotta tackle this soon myself. Another 2 cubic meters of mulch and the topsoil to finish some raised planter boxes.
I’m still base ground prepping, but expecting to go ham with wicking beds this summer.
Little bit of a rambling. I’m sitting here writing notes, made a mistake so I scrubbed it out and then I realised I can erase it out because it’s an erasable gel pen. Then I remembered the old pen rubbers that did diddly squat but rip your paper so everyone used liquid paper instead. Got me thinking.
What has come a long way (for the better) since your childhood?
Photocopiers. Like, we have photocopiers now. They were revolutionary. Don’t start me on what life was like before them.
Hot water services - no more stuffing the 10 gallon chip heater with briquette fragments and wood chips before doing the washing up or taking a bath or washing hair. And stuffing it again if you ran out of hot water.
just reading this made me flash back to the smell of mimeograph ink.
mmm. purple.
I thought that might have just been me! Purple definitely has a distinct smell.
pastel highlighters
Yes! Officeworks is like a lolly shop now.
Yass.
Now they just need to update MS Word. Who the hell invented those highlight colours, anyway?
I don’t miss WordStar.
Liquid paper tape so much better than the fluid with the brush and the liquid paper pens.
Mechanical pencils are way better now.
So many girls used it on their fingernails then coloured them in with texta.
That was a thing back home too.
Tights & stockings. They used to get runs in them on the first wear but now they last for years.
I remember being able to get different colours like maroon and purple panty hose. Why? I dunno.
Those pen erasers have come a long way. The guys driving around on purple plates use them to fake their rego book entries. Looks like real pen, erases fully.
Right. The trick is not to press too hard on the page. Works like a dream.
Engine oil
How so?
Synthetic oil became widely available for consumers in our lifetime. It offers superior lubricating performance and longevity.
So now we don’t have to change it out nearly as often.
So that’s a small comfort.
Interesting. Oils ain’t oils.
Super exciting stuff haha
I understand synthetic oil is nearly as good as whale oil for lubricating. I also understand that whale oil is still used in space craft and F1 race cars because it’s still the absolute best for the purpose.
Dentistry.
The afternoon sleepiness is upon me.
Coffee not helping.
2 hours of meetings on the horizon.
Grant me strength oh mighty Odin.
You have my sword
and my BlasTech DL-44
Heads will rolls, mark my words.
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Mice are so cute!!! Ugh, their little paws, their little noses, their cute eyes. This course is great just for doing health checks on mice tbh
They smell and they shit everywhere. That’s why cats were invented.
Hehehe yeah it shat in my hand, but it’s cuteness made it worth it
